Fasting: A Time of Cleansing and Transformation
Due to the unique nature of who I am, and how I create my surrounding world of reality; also the overall nature of my being, that of Unconditional Love and compassion, I am beginning a complete fast of all negative thoughts, words, and actions. This week, when I was ascertaining the repetition of negative cycles throughout my life, I experienced a strong and solid conviction within my being, that I must immediately stop entertaining the negativity in all forms that is so prevalent in the world today. I know that some believe that doing so is sure evidence that one is trying to escape from reality. That is not at all the case with me. In no way am I attempting to avoid or escape from the reality of my present existence here on Earth Mother, that would be one of the most ridiculous, fickle, and utterly impossible things I could ever try to do. If for some reason I feel that I am being guided to deal with any negative situations, such as something that was done by another; I cannot deal with it without having the balancing positive energy of a solution to the negative problem. If the balancing positive solution eludes me for whatever reason, I am not allowed to touch it in word or deed due to my negativity fast.
From many years of life experiences; I have come to know and understand, that the more I focus on and give attention to a thought, word, and action; I am feeding what I am giving my attention to, more of the energy it needs to cause it to grow and get stronger. Because of that, I must be very conscious, and very careful of what I think say and do, because in giving energy to a thing, I become the co-creator of that thing from that point on. Over the 57 years I have been blessed to live, I have unconsciously become the creator, and co-creator of many less than desirable things that I do not even believe in. That is a prime reason why I must be in a state of continual conscious existence, and a state of conscious creation at all times. Everything in this physical existence is responsible for one of two things; producing more life by giving positive life energy to the Whole of Creation, or detracting from life, by draining energy from the Whole of Creation due to unbalanced negativity. The main purpose for this fast is to add the energy to the Whole of Creation that is needed for its further growth.
Fasting is known to free up energy, which in turn gives the person fasting the ability to use the freed up energy in whatever way their inner Higher Self feels is appropriate. Many see fasting as a form of denying oneself of something. I see fasting as a way of freeing up energy, and then adding that energy to my life and the Whole of Creation in whatever positive way the energy is needed.
It is late at night, and I am thinking about my life and all of my experiences, both pleasant and not so pleasant. I have been fighting to survive my entire lifetime; even before I was born I was fighting. I was born premature and had to start this life out fighting to survive. Throughout my life at home, and elsewhere the fighting went on and it still continues. Many times throughout my 57 years of life, I wanted to just give up and die. However, as all can see I am still here, and I am still fighting, that surely amounts to something very positive.
I no longer want to give up on this awesome blessing we call life. Also, I will never return to that dark frame of mind. I cannot lie; sometimes I still get a little tired of fighting. Nevertheless, somehow I always find a way to draw on the strength within my Spirit that is needed to carry on and find my place of balance. There are those who see me as nobody, just another person who will never amount to anything. Also, there are those who feel that I am cursed and will never get anything and never become anyone they would want to associate with. There are even those who feel like I am no more and no less than a user and conman. I actually had someone call me a user once. That was one of the most hurtful things ever said to me. However, I understand why people feel as they do, and I do not blame them, nor do I have any harsh feelings of anger or hatred towards them. Hopefully one day they will look at my life and say; he made it; he actually made it, good for him. Or they will say this, you know what; he might have been a little strange, but he never gave up. He may not have accomplished every single thing he was after, but he never gave up. I am so glad that he found the strength within his Spirit to staying the course.
I do not want much out of life. I just want enough to take care of my responsibilities, and to have a few nice things. Along with that all I want is enough left over to help a few people in need. One of my responsibilities in this lifetime is to some how get my children to know how much I truly do Love them. My Love for them was misunderstood when our family broke up. One last and very important thing I would like to experience in this lifetime is; connecting with that Special Lady, that Sacred Woman who will Love me just for who I am and nothing more, and I will Love her for who she is and nothing more. We will come together and live together in Unconditional Love and Happiness, because we first Love GODDESS/GOD, then ourselves. I must and will hold fast to all of my dreams and goals until they come true, or until I am shown that they are not necessary, or when I eventually make transition while in the process of doing all that is physically possible, trying to make them all come true and a part of my conscious reality. I will not give up no matter what. Matter of fact, I cannot give up no matter what.
It is not of the utmost importance; however, one day I will be known for who I truly am, one who is totally committed to Divine Will and the Oneness of the Whole of Creation. Also, a Good Loving Man Whom Truly Cares About, and Loves Everyone. I will never be educated like a scholar from secular and religious institutions, that is not necessary as far as I am concerned, because I was educated in all things Spiritual. Nevertheless, I will always have a wealth of Unconditional Love to share with everyone, to share with the whole of creation. If in the process I make a few mis-takes and repeat a few blunders, you must pay that no mind; it is all part of my journey called life. However, one day when all of the dust clears, to the amazement of some, I will still be standing tall and strong.
It is the morning now, and I awakened with my experiences in this lifetime still a little fresh on my mind. Even though I do not quite know what it is, I know deep within me that there is a purpose for all of this. That is why I can and am finding the faith within my Spirit, to stay the course. I am a Love Warrior, an Ambassador of Love; Love is my driving force, Love is my Eternal Comforter, and Love Is My Religion. Here is something I wrote in 2008 about Love.
LOVE Is All There Is!
When it comes down to loving others as deeply as we sometimes do and should, periodically we completely forget reality, and do that which we know deep within ourselves, deep within our Spirits, that which we know we should not do.
LOVE is so warm and generous, it causes us to see through the Pure Unconditional Sight created and given to us by MOTHER/FATHER GODDESS/GOD. Our connection to LOVE is complete and liberating, yet dishonesty and deception is so sneaky, it can sneak in swiftly if we do not remain Spiritually aware and conscious, and it will knock us out of balance with LOVE, because deception is ruthless, persistent, and pretty darn hard and relentless.
So why should we keep loving, why should we keep trying, when for the most part it seems like all we always receive in return, is a great deal of pain and suffering? We should and must keep loving, and keep trying simply because we are learning to be LOVE, we are learning how to give LOVE Unconditionally. We must LOVE without expecting anything in return, and without pointing a finger of blame at anyone, not even ourselves, especially when LOVE does not return to us in the way that we want it to. However, the number one key, the secret to LOVE, is learning to LOVE ourselves first.
We are supposed to LOVE unconditionally. However, we are not to submit to anyone’s cruel and/or self-centered abuse in the name of Unconditional LOVE. We must learn how to LOVE as we also learn how to release all expectations of LOVE, especially if all we are receiving in return is a systematic shower of self-centered abuse, from someone who is Spiritually, intellectually, and mentally unconscious, and unaware of the All-Powerful, Divine Eternal Creative Energy that LOVE produces, in and through us as we give it freely.
When we are abused in the name of LOVE, it is capable of bringing out the worst in us if we allow it to. Believe it or not, that is a very good situation to be in, because such situations are designed to expose the dark negative energies that are lurking and hiding deep within us. Once all of the hidden crap we have allowed to build up within us is exposed, we must bathe all of the negative thoughts and energies, with the Healing Balm of Unconditional LOVE. In time, that will completely clean up the areas within us where the darkness of negativity is trying to hide, and take root as a negativity bearing crop of doubt, fear, hopelessness, pain, suffering, and debilitating stress.
We are LOVE, because we are created by LOVE, and LOVE ITSELF is none other than our Sacred Parent, MOTHER/FATHER GODDESS/GOD. Mankind’s greed, deception, and delusion with LOVE and what LOVE truly is, has tripped humanity up, and mis-leads humanity completely. Nevertheless, that is only a temporary situation, because we are starting to remember that we are one with the Power of LOVE, which can and does Conquer All. As time and challenges pass, we start to consciously embrace this reality and come to know that the LOVE that Conquers All, resides eternally within our Spirits.
Therefore, we must not be so hard on ourselves when deception sneaks in, hurts us and the pain reaches way down to the very core of our soul. That is the time for us to cause ourselves to be still, and then call out to LOVE within our Spirit. That is when LOVE will reach out to us, embrace us, and pour the Healing Balm of Unconditional LOVE all over us, completely saturating us from head-to-toe, and in turn healing our minds, our thoughts, our bodies, it will even heal our relationships.
Sad hard times, just like Beauty-Full Joy-Full times, visit with us to bring healing, restoration, transformation, and growth to us; once again causing each of us to see that we are and always have been full of LOVE, perfection, and also full of the Divine ever so Brilliant Beauty of GODDESS/GOD. Each and every one of us was created Perfect and Whole before our physical incarnation here on Earth Mother. That was made possible through the Unconditional LOVE of our Beloved Precious Spiritual Parent, MOTHER/FATHER GODDESS/GOD. When we consciously allow ourselves to enter into Sacred Consciousness, we are given the Sacred Gift of mental restoration and true remembrance of who we are. Could there possibly be anything else we need outside of LOVE and Divine Revelation? Absolutely Not!
We Are LOVE
You Are LOVE
LOVE Is All There Is!
Baba-Kundi Ma`at-Shambhala
01.22.08
(Revised 04.25.11)
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